I feel scared thinking of myself afloat on a lily-pad in a giant endless ocean, under a flat sky. There is no home. Float, float, float. There is nobody else. Adrift. It doesn't mean anything. Even my personal history keeps detaching from me, time slips away through my machinations. Who am I? What is this? …
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When I got into crypto and started buying some, I decided that I should think about where its value really comes from. I realized soon that much of what sets the value is really just speculation: people buying and selling because they think its value is something, and that’s what actually ends up deciding much …
Micro-dosing ushered in my life a wave of stillness, joy and vibrance. Then, after some months came the crest.
'Don't worry, it's all going according to plan.' I have often heard religious people say this about the course of the world. I harbour a similar feeling, but with some differences, that I would like to simply describe, without explanation or persuasion.
As our sensory-material world draws us into its web, being distanced from its sensations and objects feels unsatisfactory. This is because we have identified sensations and activities as the source of our pleasures. In meditation there is an effort to 'be' rather than 'do': a steady dis-identification from the objects of consciousness, including the self, …
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